i was currently freaking out about my bills, and i came to realize something. i work in arbys (and i work hard) for $6.00 an hour. i am honest. i try. but i look around me and see the world; drug dealers get everything that they want and need. so why shouldnt i, ya know? i could sell and make enough to pay my bills for quite a while. while it pisses me off to know that i am a good honest hard working person and i cant have hardly anything i want, at the same time, i look at what i have; i have my bear (bay) who i love more than anything and money cant buy that, and i have school and necesseties. why 'get by' by selling things that could possibly kill people and risk ruining my life, when i can just be patient for a little while longer and have the life i have always wanted? so my decision? NO. i will live and i will come out stronger.

also, i tend to remember my dad saying rude things to protesters back when i used to live in cali. he used to tell them to "get a life" and dumb crap like that. i'd just like to say to anyone and everyone who feels that way; IF IT WASNT FOR THOSE 'DUMB PROTESTORS' YOU WOULDNT BE WHERE YOU ARE TODAY, THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

san diego is on fire. i love my brandita and i wish her well; viva el cajon.

I LOVE YOU BEAW!